[Ellie goes quiet again, realizing with a start that he... doesn't believe. And hell, can she blame him? After what he's been through? After all of that, every day, knowing that he's been subjected to torture just for the sake of a cover?
It sounds more painful than believing the carefully constructed lies. All of Ellie's explanations, her stories of what's happened -- all her proof. Suddenly, none of it matters, and she feels sick to her stomach for ever thinking she could tell him and it would all be better.
Ellie grits her teeth, shakes her head, looks away. She can't even look him in the eyes.]
Okay.
There's no fucking way that I'm going to sit here and tell you to trust Snape. Not after what you've been through. If what happened to me, if what happened to Joel and Tess was even a little bit of the shit you saw, then nothing's ever going to make up for it.
So I'm not- I'm not gonna tell you what to feel.
[She knows that now. She's glad she saw it in time.]
You have every right to hate him, and to feel like this whole thing is crazy, because it is.
But I'll tell you what. I'm all for making sure that nobody else gets hurt, if I can help it. I'm all for making it really, really hard for Crouch to keep pulling his bullshit. So if you'll have me? I'm on your side.
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Date: 2014-03-20 07:33 am (UTC)It sounds more painful than believing the carefully constructed lies. All of Ellie's explanations, her stories of what's happened -- all her proof. Suddenly, none of it matters, and she feels sick to her stomach for ever thinking she could tell him and it would all be better.
Ellie grits her teeth, shakes her head, looks away. She can't even look him in the eyes.]
Okay.
There's no fucking way that I'm going to sit here and tell you to trust Snape. Not after what you've been through. If what happened to me, if what happened to Joel and Tess was even a little bit of the shit you saw, then nothing's ever going to make up for it.
So I'm not- I'm not gonna tell you what to feel.
[She knows that now. She's glad she saw it in time.]
You have every right to hate him, and to feel like this whole thing is crazy, because it is.
But I'll tell you what. I'm all for making sure that nobody else gets hurt, if I can help it. I'm all for making it really, really hard for Crouch to keep pulling his bullshit. So if you'll have me? I'm on your side.